yesterday was a hard day, i took my drivers test, and, i didn't pass. i was so sad; and humiliated, i had to tell everyone who was praying for me that i failed, how embarrassing! any way, i was so nervous that i got an automatic fail, i finished the test and the instructor told me about the fail, she kept talking, but my heart was pounding so loud in my ears that i didn't try to listen. i felt mortified!  i stept out of the car to my mom behind the camera, documenting the worst part of my day. i couldn't smile i couldn't hear, all i could do was walk and shake my head back and forth indicating my failure to my mother. i don't know how long i cried, but i could not talk for a long time. but im ok now.

every second counts.........

this has been truly a full year, my schedule is booked, it feels so chaotic but you wouldn't see it on the outside, because i can pass it off by looking better than i feel ! oh, the beauty of make-up! so, i have been so busy that i have barely had any time to  blog, and that makes me sad :(  because i love to write ! about anything ! i am in the middle o writing my second Novel right now, i know I'm just a "rookie" but i write because i get really great story ideas and i need to get them on paper so i can remember them always! i love writing with many characters because i can decide what they do,what they say and why they say and do those things. one i ge in to a story i have to write more, its like I'm reading a book i enjoy, but i control everything when i want drama i get it when i want romance, i ge it. it is really very thrilling. my latest book is about a girl named Aimie who is in an abusive relationship with her boyfriend of four ears (Keith). i think it is progressing well. other than that, my days consist of school, volley ball, practice, games, SAT prep, PSAT tests, and passing out on the couch around 8:30. i am a senior citizen. besides my youth being taken, i am having a great time with my old and new friends i have made over e past few weeks.

                              love,
                                      Ash

now the summer is over and the good times continue in the new school year and our new grades and our new classes. Savannah is now in ninth grade, and i am entering the most difficult year of high school, junior year. and though were excited, we are also nervous, we no longer think, "which boy is cutest this year?" no. we think how many credits do i need to graduate, my mind has been focused on how im going to pay for my car and hen im going to get my license. and Savannah's mind is full of friends, school, and now, money raising for her trip to Uganda. so this year is going to be quite full but we are going to make the most of it and seize the day.