"My world would be a wonderland" - Alice

I suppose it is not until you are much older when you see what little things played such a big role in your life, for me it was classic Walt Disney movies.

 This weekend I went to Disneyland for the seventh time in my life and while my friend Jessica and I were finding things to do that I had never done I realized there were a lot of things I had never seen or done there this is me with Excalibur, I had never seen tried to pull it out before because I had never seen it. I was really excited to try, I know that it only releases once a day... it did not release for me :( but that is okay.

 That day I realized just how much i learned from those movies and stories.

I realized that when i was a kid I hated sitting through the opening credits when it was just a chorus singing, paintings of main characters and names of people I didn't know... And now I love it! I get so excited when i see that castle and tinker bell, and the Walt Disney Pictures title.

Steam Boat Willy is my favorite! I really loved all of the black and white cartoons. I loved waking up on Saturday mornings and singing "M-I-C*K-E-Y*M-O-U-S-E"

Disney taught me that family is where you feel safest,

 where your heart is where your home is, family is a sanctuary

Disney taught me that family, is the most important thing of all.

Disney taught me to never give up. Especially on myself.

Disney taught me to be who I want to be, and to always dream, because nothing is impossible.

Now I'm learning that even though I'm grown, I can still keep some of my child hood, and that is what I intend to do by disneybounding every outfit! (Family, this is Disneybound click here but be where its addicting... )

Most importantly Disney taught me to believe in happy endings because life would be awfully sad without them.

so I will continue to wait for my prince charming...

I'll keep having fun and sometimes act childish...

And I'll live happily ever after.

Now I have to go, because lord knows...

XOXO, ashLEIGH

The things that are started out of boredom

 One day I decide to paint my nails but I didn't want just one color, I wanted something special! So I bagan to look up nail tutorials on you tube, I found some really fun ones ant it just took off from there...
Now I'm addicted! I'm like a pro at painting left handed now :) which helps me with one of my life goals, becoming ambidextrous. (score!)
Sometimes I'll get an idea from Pintrest, or my friends will challenge me :) at school I get a lot of compliments on them so I decided to post some of my latest ones...






Valentines day.

 

 Cupcakes! (I was missing my Jamie, she calls me cupcake so I did these for her.)

 Strawberries, good enough to eat.

 Owls, in honor of Harry potter on blue ray.

Tuxedos, because i was feelin' fancy ;)

these are inspired by the stain glass windows of castio's in Italy (I was missing it a lot)






XOXO, ashLEIGH

who remembers the 80's?

who remembers the 80's? Its the title of a mix CD of Regina's but lately I have been on an 80's movies kick I just cant seem to get enough the one above I'm sure you (my readers) recognize but I am sad to say a lot of the world including my generation recognize as a spoof on this movie from newer movies and TV shows but they don't know it as a spoof which make me and my girl friends like Jamie and Jessica (the Blondies) (Chelsea is the brunette she is a good friend but she isn't as in to movies as the rest of us) any way it makes us

sad, we had a whole conversation about it while watching Say Anything the other day, so i decided to make a list of 16 of our favorite 80's movies be prepared for a lot of Molly Ringwald and Anthony Michael Hall so here we go:

  16 . Ghost Busters because hey even if you haven't watched the movies you know the song.

 15 . Beetle Juice because it was like one of the first funny scary movies I can remember 

 14 . Zapped, this movie is soooooo cheezy but that is the same thing that makes it great.

 13 . Revenge of the Nerds, because i do love nerds and because its a fun movie.

 12 . Fast times at Ridgemont High

because "hey dude lets party" actually i like that Sean Penn was one of the smallest least important characters but he stole the whole show.

  11. Valley Girl reason 

#1 because Nicholas Cage is super hot in it.

#2 because it has stupes one liners that have no importance and make me laugh like "lets crush that fly." and "cool is this movie in 3D? *****

No. But your face is!" 

  10. Bill and Ted's Excellent adventure because it taught us about history and to "be excellent to each other"

plus, Vannah and I like then Bill says "Ted, dont be dead dude..." it was one of our first DVDs so we would watch it on a loop and memorize the lines. 

   09. Labyrinth is on this list for one reason and one alone. David Bowie.

   08. Pretty in Pink, because Duckie is the cutest :) and because he sings Otis Redding! I love the movies with random song numbers.

  07. The Breakfast Club, because it taught us that a day in weekend detention can undo years of ignoring each other, self loathing, stealing, bullying, stealing, vanity, and become friends through all there differences and make out leaving the poor nerdy boy still the odd man out...

 06. Sixteen Candles. Do I even need to say why this is on here? ill just tell you there are 5  reasons why:

1. the sister on muscle relaxers and when she says "Samantha, you're really being... an a** hole."

2. Long Duck Dong
3. Farmer Ted

4. Because we all know how it feels to be in love with someone who doesn't know you exist

5. JAKE RYAN!!!! HELLO!!!!

05. The Goonies, because I wish my childhood adventures were that exciting. Also I love the "truffle shuffle" "Boobie traps" and heck i just love The Goonies.

04.  Ferris Bueller's Day off.

oh so many reasons:

1. Bueller...? Bueller...? Bueller?

2. I wish I had this day playing hookie

3. it has a random song and dance number

03. Say Anything. I already covered this but its because i love Lloyd Dobler he is pretty close to the perfect man that is realistic not like Mr. Darcy or Edward Cullen but he is pretty close to an actual person.

02. The Princess Bride, three words: 

"As you wish."

 

01. The Jerk, it is the funniest most under appreciated comedy of all time probably... and this is for my family who know all the lines in this movie because it was the only VHS they owned...

I'm picking out a Thermos for you. Not an ordinary Thermos for you. But the extra best Thermos that you can buy, with vinyl and stripes and a cup built right in. And what else can i buy so on me you'll rely, a rear end thermometer too. 

 I love you guys thank you for reading, xoxo ashLEIGH

what do you do?

one minute  its all fun, and the next you are no longer a child, you can no longer act like a child and play you have to be serious. move out in to the real world, if the world wants you... sometimes you can feel so abandoned, so unbelievably sad. 

sometimes i think i cant keep afloat and then a bunch of terrible things happen and i feel even more helpless. i have a sister who is hurting a best friend who is miserable and another friend who is heartbroken and watching all this pain around me, and my secret pain makes me feel like i want to crawl under a rock, maybe i can hide behind mom and dad for a few more years and pretend that i'm not a high school  graduate... i am just so done. 


im done with pretending i know what i want. 
im done with stupid boys
im done worrying 
im done trying to force myself to grow up because its "socially acceptable"
im done caring what society thinks
im just so done
with things that shouldn't concern me, because im still young. and dang it! i don't have a problem so you know what college students who give sorry looks and say you're so young
 stuff you!
you don't know a thing you are still growing up yourself! get off my age start acting you're own.
im not quite sure when this depressed post became an angry rant... please don't read too much in to this post, im not depressed im just stressed and stress combined with long day and late night and blog are apparently  bad combination. but im posting this any way because i promised my self i would start doing this more often, blogging, writing as my self, keeping up on plane and tall for Regina. 


thank you for reading, untill next time 


xoxo, ashleigh

Regina Ring

this one is for you

She would be mad at me for doing this... Regina was my mom's best friend they met freshman year in High School, she was like an aunt to me and my sister. I mean she has been in my life longer than some of my actual family members, she has been in my life for a long time. 

And she was one of my most dedicated readers, she really believed in my blog and in my robot shirts she helped me so much in getting to Italy.

It's so hard to believe that l won't see her ever again...

every time i had seen her she would say, "hey why haven't you been writing on your blog lately? l have it bookmarked on my computer at work, l check it all the time just to see if you have updated it." and l would always give some lame excuse why l wasn't writing...

I wish i would have told her how much she meant to me, how much she still means to me... how all of the holidays felt empty as i got older but not when l was with her because she made them so fun. How l will always think of her when ever l see a picture of a fairy or a moon and stars l always think of her. that all of my successful partys were thanks to her. how when she started writing more than her name in our cards, and started writing paragraphs and that she loved us it meant so much. 

We love you Regina.

Thank you for being such an important person in my life, in all of our lives.

time and how it is always passing

           it has come to my attention that time is never enough, there is too much or too little, either way we are always trying to keep up with it, and we plan our life around it. being in my last year of High school I find myself reflecting on the aspect of time a lot, looking back, looking forward.

 It is a scary thing to go through changes, especially when I'm so comfortable in this small world that has been created here at Grove this is my home, i feel like i belong here. everyone is so excepting of everyone and kind and weird, w all fit in, i could et along just fine right here forever... but i would never learn to accept change, i would never have experience in the outside world, i would never further my education, i would never pursue my dreams and fulfill my ambitions.

  I guess time is always fleeting so that we can choose to keep up, time gives us a chance for more time, thats why it gives new minutes hours months years, so that we can move on, and now I am too.

XOXO moustachleigh

my senior year in high school

senior year started out like all the rest of my years at Grove, say hi to the friends you have seen over the summer and the ones you haven't seen over summer, it is nothing special because you have known these people for forever, some for seven years some for fifteen years.
the first days are run-through's for our classes, then its campus beautification( :( boring and hott ) then the all-school-camp out, for the last two years we have gone to camp wolf bear, and at the end of every camp out we have to do a camp reflection, well a girl at my school said "i didn't like it up their, next year lets go to silver wood lake" so we did. and guess who didn't even go on the camp trip?!?!?!?! HER!!!!
the teachers take us camping because they want us to bond, but the reason we bond so much up their is because we complain about the camp out.
so anyways, as you know i was on the cleans diet of eating only God made foods, so i was feeling great, i had so much energy, it was amazing i felt five years old again! so we went on a hike one day, we got lost (which seems to be a tradition on Grove camp trips) it was long, we went to the lake. it was soooooooooooooo gross! their was so much muck i could have probably walked on top of it like fricken Jesus haha, it smelt like a port-a-potty.
the second day, we went for a hike, the school went in three groups, slow, medium, fast. i left in the slow, our group left first then five minutes later the medium group left, the fifteen minutes later the fast group left, so we would all end up in the same place at the same time. so i was feeling great in the slow group, it was a hot hot day so i was determined to reach our destination, i was far ahead of everyone in my group. we were a little over half way their when my legs started to feel a tad "noodley" my head felt like some one had slapped me with a brick, i felt so cold on the inside of my body, and so hot on the outside. i continues drinking water but it was so hot outside that my watter was too, it tasted boiled. i told my friend Jamie how i was feeling, she said it sounded like i was dehydrated, then, my body gave up. i collapsed i sat on a dirt hill under a tree, soon my closest friends surrounded me giving me water, my art teacher wet a cloth and started to cool me down it was weird but hey it started to work. she told me i was suffering form heat stroke, and that my blood sugar was probably low, i needed salt. but i was on my diet, and i couldn't eat that! Mariah handed me a dorrito to eat but their was no way i was going back to say one, no way. they continued to say "you need this Ashleigh, your body is shutting down on you". after a while i began to feel much better, i did need salt, so i licked the dorrito. my English teacher said i needed electrolytes and he bought me a yellow power aid and i drank half, my friends drank the other half. the camp trip... one through ten... it gets a five.

so then the next week i drive to school, park out front by the sidewalk right next to the street, i'm begin climbing out if the car when all of a sudden some thing from my car (jayjay) sprays me in the face. it burns my eyes, my skin is on fire and my throat as well. i step out of the car and pinned my self up agents jayjay so i don't wander in to the street and get hit by a car and die. i cover my face with one hand, with the other i feel my way around the back of the car i trip over the curb and fall on my back,i scream out the f-bomb as i crash to the floor, people from my school are still getting dropped off so some people probably saw we writhing in pain on the side walk. as i am laying their, i think about what my car could have possibly sprayed me with, then it clicks that i had a can of pepper spray on my keys, which the safety cone undone sometimes i must have pressed on the nob while getting out of the car. just then i hear someone say "hi Ashleigh." i wanted that person to help, but i also did not want that person to help. i turned to the voice, my sight regained and i turn to see Lauren Eis sitting crossed legged on the sidewalk next to me, "are you okay?" she asked probably thinking i was upset about something rather than have a face full of mace. it hurt to speak but somehow i managed to say "pepper... spray... me... i...its in my mouth, and my eyes!" she said "oh God, should i take you up to the school?" i asked her to take me to my moms work. i walked through the door i tried to speak but i couldn't, my mom rushed out, i made it clear that i was not in a car accident (her mind always links to car accident first, pepper sprayed in the face probably would have not been her next thought) i told her what happened, she rushed me over to the sink and started to wash out my eyes, all of her co-workers began to help, one of her friends looked up how to treat it, and it said not to flush it out with water but milk and water mixed so we did that, but every thing else still burned, so i went home for the day. but boy oh boy my friends are still making fun of me for that.

in other news Thursday night i saw my favorite band Muse, it was so fricken amazing i'm soooo glad i went
ill never forget it, i hope to go again! oh and my camera finally got fixed and came the night before the concert so i got to take pics! to any one who does not know Muse, look them up, listen and have your mind blown. for those of you who do know Muse but only know them because they love twilight, and Stephenie Meyer said she loved them so you looked them up and all-of-a-sudden you love them too, shame on you! or you found out about them from the latest guitar hero, shame shame shame! for those of you who do know them, and like them, buy a ticket and go to the show what is a few dollars to a long lasting mind blowing experience/ memory?  hit me up and maybe we can go together ;) haha

so that is my update, senior year has been slow so far but i'm sure it will speed up soon.
                                                                                                   -ash