sometimes i think i cant keep afloat and then a bunch of terrible things happen and i feel even more helpless. i have a sister who is hurting a best friend who is miserable and another friend who is heartbroken and watching all this pain around me, and my secret pain makes me feel like i want to crawl under a rock, maybe i can hide behind mom and dad for a few more years and pretend that i'm not a high school graduate... i am just so done.
im done with pretending i know what i want.
im done with stupid boys
im done worrying
im done trying to force myself to grow up because its "socially acceptable"
im done caring what society thinks
im just so done
with things that shouldn't concern me, because im still young. and dang it! i don't have a problem so you know what college students who give sorry looks and say you're so young
stuff you!
you don't know a thing you are still growing up yourself! get off my age start acting you're own.
im not quite sure when this depressed post became an angry rant... please don't read too much in to this post, im not depressed im just stressed and stress combined with long day and late night and blog are apparently bad combination. but im posting this any way because i promised my self i would start doing this more often, blogging, writing as my self, keeping up on plane and tall for Regina.
thank you for reading, untill next time
xoxo, ashleigh
