Sunday, September 26, 2010

my senior year in high school



senior year started out like all the rest of my years at Grove, say hi to the friends you have seen over the summer and the ones you haven't seen over summer, it is nothing special because you have known these people for forever, some for seven years some for fifteen years.
the first days are run-through's for our classes, then its campus beautification( :( boring and hott ) then the all-school-camp out, for the last two years we have gone to camp wolf bear, and at the end of every camp out we have to do a camp reflection, well a girl at my school said "i didn't like it up their, next year lets go to silver wood lake" so we did. and guess who didn't even go on the camp trip?!?!?!?! HER!!!!
the teachers take us camping because they want us to bond, but the reason we bond so much up their is because we complain about the camp out.
so anyways, as you know i was on the cleans diet of eating only God made foods, so i was feeling great, i had so much energy, it was amazing i felt five years old again! so we went on a hike one day, we got lost (which seems to be a tradition on Grove camp trips) it was long, we went to the lake. it was soooooooooooooo gross! their was so much muck i could have probably walked on top of it like fricken Jesus haha, it smelt like a port-a-potty.
the second day, we went for a hike, the school went in three groups, slow, medium, fast. i left in the slow, our group left first then five minutes later the medium group left, the fifteen minutes later the fast group left, so we would all end up in the same place at the same time. so i was feeling great in the slow group, it was a hot hot day so i was determined to reach our destination, i was far ahead of everyone in my group. we were a little over half way their when my legs started to feel a tad "noodley" my head felt like some one had slapped me with a brick, i felt so cold on the inside of my body, and so hot on the outside. i continues drinking water but it was so hot outside that my watter was too, it tasted boiled. i told my friend Jamie how i was feeling, she said it sounded like i was dehydrated, then, my body gave up. i collapsed i sat on a dirt hill under a tree, soon my closest friends surrounded me giving me water, my art teacher wet a cloth and started to cool me down it was weird but hey it started to work. she told me i was suffering form heat stroke, and that my blood sugar was probably low, i needed salt. but i was on my diet, and i couldn't eat that! Mariah handed me a dorrito to eat but their was no way i was going back to say one, no way. they continued to say "you need this Ashleigh, your body is shutting down on you". after a while i began to feel much better, i did need salt, so i licked the dorrito. my English teacher said i needed electrolytes and he bought me a yellow power aid and i drank half, my friends drank the other half. the camp trip... one through ten... it gets a five.


so then the next week i drive to school, park out front by the sidewalk right next to the street, i'm begin climbing out if the car when all of a sudden some thing from my car (jayjay) sprays me in the face. it burns my eyes, my skin is on fire and my throat as well. i step out of the car and pinned my self up agents jayjay so i don't wander in to the street and get hit by a car and die. i cover my face with one hand, with the other i feel my way around the back of the car i trip over the curb and fall on my back,i scream out the f-bomb as i crash to the floor, people from my school are still getting dropped off so some people probably saw we writhing in pain on the side walk. as i am laying their, i think about what my car could have possibly sprayed me with, then it clicks that i had a can of pepper spray on my keys, which the safety cone undone sometimes i must have pressed on the nob while getting out of the car. just then i hear someone say "hi Ashleigh." i wanted that person to help, but i also did not want that person to help. i turned to the voice, my sight regained and i turn to see Lauren Eis sitting crossed legged on the sidewalk next to me, "are you okay?" she asked probably thinking i was upset about something rather than have a face full of mace. it hurt to speak but somehow i managed to say "pepper... spray... me... i...its in my mouth, and my eyes!" she said "oh God, should i take you up to the school?" i asked her to take me to my moms work. i walked through the door i tried to speak but i couldn't, my mom rushed out, i made it clear that i was not in a car accident (her mind always links to car accident first, pepper sprayed in the face probably would have not been her next thought) i told her what happened, she rushed me over to the sink and started to wash out my eyes, all of her co-workers began to help, one of her friends looked up how to treat it, and it said not to flush it out with water but milk and water mixed so we did that, but every thing else still burned, so i went home for the day. but boy oh boy my friends are still making fun of me for that.


in other news Thursday night i saw my favorite band Muse, it was so fricken amazing i'm soooo glad i went
ill never forget it, i hope to go again! oh and my camera finally got fixed and came the night before the concert so i got to take pics! to any one who does not know Muse, look them up, listen and have your mind blown. for those of you who do know Muse but only know them because they love twilight, and Stephenie Meyer said she loved them so you looked them up and all-of-a-sudden you love them too, shame on you! or you found out about them from the latest guitar hero, shame shame shame! for those of you who do know them, and like them, buy a ticket and go to the show what is a few dollars to a long lasting mind blowing experience/ memory?  hit me up and maybe we can go together ;) haha

so that is my update, senior year has been slow so far but i'm sure it will speed up soon.
                                                                                                   -ash

Monday, August 23, 2010

"yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. thats why it is called the present."


Normally, (on any other day) I would have thought that this saying was... wise, insightful, and many other things. But after today... I think its a load of crap. 
"please God give me another day... and erase this one from my memory. Amen"
I wish I could blame the events that happened today on someone but the sad miserable truth is... I have only myself to blame. And maybe that is why it hurts so bad, because I know that I was in the wrong (all evidence points to me), also, it made my Mom right, as she always is ( :/ ).
WHY IS MY LIFE SO PREDICTABLE!?!?!?!?
it annoys me to no end. And I am sorry i am ranting right now, but I have no one to "console me" or complain to, so Ill unleash my depressed thoughts in to the internet, to my few readers.
I cant go in to detail with out going on a rampage, just know that it is nothing of grave concern.
I feel so overwhelmed. And I've been thinking about that word "overwhelmed" and I have  thought about all the times I have felt overwhelmed, and I realized that I have never felt underwhelmed. Oh how I long to be underwhelmed. I guess that's why we have summer.... time to feel underwhelmed. Unfortunately it has had the opposite effect on me. :/
                        Untill next time... if you even wish to continue on after this entry (once again I am sorry)
                                                                      -ash

Saturday, August 21, 2010

8 days down.... 22 days to go...

so my mom my sis and i joined this "boot camp" that is run by a nice couple that goes to our church (Jessica and Mike) the program lasts for twelve weeks, we work out twice a week on our own, and once on Saturday all together, and for 35 of those 12 weeks we are eating ONLY God made foods (foods that are the most nutritious for our bodies). The diet is supposed to make us realize our addictions that we never noticed before taken away. I am not addicted to any foods, so I said "why not? I can eat right for a few days." it is not as hard as i thought. Going in to this, and looking at the list of things NOT to eat, my eyes fell on one section, NO DAIRY!, I LOVE yogurt, milk, CHEESE, all those goods! But unfortunately i must abstain from the creamy delicious dairy products for 35 days, I knew that dairy is what I would crave the most; and i must know myself pretty well, because i was absolutely right!

other than that, the "diet" has been going quite successfully.... for my sister on the other hand... its not exactly "smooth sailing" she is in desperate need of sugar, she is acting like a heroin addict quitting cold turkey (its fricken hilarious). Oh did i mention, that, IF you cheat you have to start back at day 1? NO? well its true. (Savannah has to restart. even though the ingredients in honey is honey, its a substitute for her real addiction. Therefore back to square one.)








the first few days were difficult, we were spending the weekend in Vicalia (sp) with my family, and we had to go on a pick nick (the recipes that we use make a lot, but all of them have to be heated up) so we ate fruits veggies more fruits and veggies, hard boiled eggs, while our family got to enjoy sandwiches. Okay they did not enjoy their sandwiches, the cooler that they were in actually soaked all of them straight through the bag.


in other news, i went to the doctors, found out i have a stigmatism  in my left eye, and that i have exercised induced Asthma, Savannah died my hair burgundy, i painted my nails like Rihanna....
 and thats about it.

until next time
                               -ash

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

summer time

summer,

where to begin?

the summer started out slow... which is what i wanted.
i had a very fast moving summer last year, so i wanted to get
all of the things i HAD to do this summer out of the way first
 so i could do what i wanted to do this summer.

 First few weeks : baby sitting Joseph and Toby.
get enough money to buy a camera.
buy a camera.
finish summer home work.
take few pictures (because i was rarely out of the house)
shopping
shopping
online shopping
                                                                hanging out at Ali's house
                                                                waiting in line for eclipse all day with Ali even though i wasn't staying to watch the movie at midnight. i went with my aunt Susanna at three am.


next few weeks: help my Aunt Dawnette and family move in to their awesome new house
visit family in vicalia (sp)
be cca at forest home ( van and i make lots of new friends)
Savannah erases all pictures on my brand new camera (accidentally)
find out my friend Sirena was in a car accident (she is okay but broken a little)
go to drive in movies with family to see the best movie ever (Inception)
i start to work with my mom making a movie at MIR called toy story 3.5 i did all the edditing
my camera starts taking blurry pictures i take it to get fixed
help my uncle mike and family move out of their old apartment and in to their new one
went to movies and market night with Morgan and her boyfriend (we saw The Sorcerers Apprentice)
went to beach with Vannah and Trish (i was saved by a life guard... sounds cool, yet, so embarrassing)
went to the movies with family to see Dinner For Schmucks (hilarious)
ate at Olive Garden and went to TCBY
still my camera is unfixed

a week later: go swimming with Eliannah in her new pool (she is so funny)
visited with my friend Jamie went to see Charlie St. Cloud (really good! Zach Efron should get an award)
next day we met up again for market night (Me, Savannah, Jamie, Sharia, Jessica, Eva ) got talked to by a police man because we were out past curfew (we had to use the bathroom what a dirt bag. strongly dislike the Redlands police) (that night sucked.)
Vannah entered driving school
then back home lounging around the house again
Vannah gets driving permit
still my camera is unfixed (im mad)


so far my summer has rocked, its been the perfect combination of  work, play, and lazyness.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

it's been so long.................

so here's whats old...
the day before mothers day my mom
and i went on a random photo shoot
we ended up going to oak glen*
so here are some of the pictures we took

we found a field of California poppies!











and my allergies didn't act up











we took pics together...











and i took pictures of her...










and then we ate dinner at a cute little restaurant called apple Annie's it was delicious :)

i don't have any pictures of  mothers day but, we went to the Arberium* it is a huge garden with plants from all over the world, and is had peacocks walking around, it was very cool, mom seemed to like it.

soft ball ended with two victories,
we were very proud, we had much
determination.

(i love Mariah in this pic, we just won, and she looks like she's being attacked by dogs lol)







well that's about it for old... the new that is up coming
 
is that in 4 days from today, we (the whole family) are going to see...
FLIGHT OF THE CONCHORDS!!!!!!!!!!






i'm so excited to see them!
well that's all for now...

talk to you soon,
                              love, Ashleigh

Thursday, April 22, 2010

good things come...

everyone has something that they are addicted to, some have drugs some have alcohol some have magazines...












                            i have Nikki!!!!!
                        And Sirena!!!!!!!!!!














she makes me laugh so hard, I'm literally in pain.















she is so crazy an hilarious, i have the most fun when I'm with her an Sirena.












we are entertained by the dumbest things and we love being around each other :)
anyway this post goes out to my crazies :)



love,
agent 006 ash ;)

Monday, April 19, 2010

who?

 what makes a person memorable?












trends, influences blah blah blah, why do normal people live up to those standards, judge everyone on the street, cloths, makeup, hair, etc. why do people crave to be accepted? 
why do i? 
















is it the things they do? the things they say? is the individual that people remember actually that person? or is it a disguise to fool th outside parties? are they themselves? is that who people like? or is it the pretend person who they like? would the other people like the real person?

why isn't everyone treated equally?










i have just been questioning the people i hang out with, i think, well... i try to be a great friend, one whom people can rely on, and people just, don't think twice about me.

no one likes to feel invisible.

i just want to be thought of.

there are tons of people who never remember my name, who don't recognize me at the store, on the street, sometimes my own friends don't go out of their way to say hi when they were at the movies.
i just feel so anonymous.

this is why i do not hang around people my age. And i'm the one who is having trouble sleeping because i need to get this off my chest some how, and they are probably sleeping like babies, not giving me a thought.

how do i become memorable? i just try to be me. and hope that people accept that, i like who i am, i'm fun loyal, i dress ok i guess, i'm not too hideous. why do i feel so unwanted?

individual: a single human being, as distinguished from a group.


a distinct, indivisible entity; a single thing, being, instance, or item.


i am an individual, and i love my friends. but i want to feel loved back, someone who is asked in to pictures and invited to movies and is texted just to see how i'm feeling, a friendship is not just one party. 












this whole thing is not just one thing that recently happened, its been little things building up in my thoughts, and i'm not just wanting to complain.


 i wanted to point out the irony in all relationships, we are all fakes, phonies, liars , pretenders, actors, and some of us are just jerks; so why cant we get along and be nice? 


























let people have the chance to come out from behind their masks, you never know, you might like what you see...







Wednesday, March 17, 2010

up date

so much to talk about! i haven't updated in forever!
first things first, i have to talk about the trip(s)
here is Miranda, Christina,James and i in Las Vegas for Eva's sweet 16. we had loads of fun!











then of course the Michigan trip! my sweet Panda got married, again! and that was great (cold, cold) fun, and Sav and i miss it out their a lot! and everyone we left behind.


then there was Winterim week the first day we went to the beach to pick up trash. did you know that sea gulls eat the trash and then die? its like they should not eat things like that huh?
nick and i wrote each other a note in the sand.











the second day we went to Hollywood, we went to the farmers market for lunch, then to ripleys believe it or not museum which was really cool, check out all the cool pics we took.
here is me and nick making "taco tongs" in the deceitful mirror which turned out to be two ways so people walking by on the other side of the wall could see us being stupid.











here is me with the man made out of buttons,  i like to call him Benjamin Button :)
















here is me and nick in the chair of love
















while we were on Hollywood Blvd we saw the people setting up for The Academy Awards, the red carpet was out and everything, so nick and i suck off to the Kodak theater to catch a glimpse of what the celebs would see when they were there.














this is me in side of the Kodak Theater on the steps.
it was so cool inside!
















then of course we went to see the foot prints at the Chinese Theater, but these were the only foot prints i was interested in :)










the next day we went to Knotts Berry Farm!















it was a lot of fun, except i have the WORST motion sickness and that made me miss out on a lot, which was sad.










i was kinda the mom of the group, i took pictures and cheered on the ones brave enough to go on the rides.















i did get to go on a few rides that did not make me feel too noxious :)










 Nick, Hannah, Miranda, Lewis :)











that day was so fun!
that, however was my last day of winterim, my stomach problems turned out to be more than motion sickness, but that is okay, i don't regret on missing out on any thing, i had fun the days i was healthy. Jamie planed a great week, (all of my love goes out to you "sweet buns").






other than that things are pretty normal, Mom and Van left on Friday the 12th for Uganda, Gulu Africa, so it is just me and my dad for two weeks. things are going great, i love spending time with my dad, we went to get his hair cut down at the beach by Dillon because he is not ready for someone else to cut his hair yet, then we went to Taco Loco for a delicious tofu mushroom burger, soooooooooooooo good! we have just been playin it by ear, i babysit for van on Mondays while she is gone and i have softball practice everyday, i like it so far. other than that my life is pretty much in rhythm, well thats all i have for you right now.........
                                                  -ash 

Monday, January 25, 2010

wise men say.....


Only Fools Rush In. oh the magical love that Alex and Isabel share in this movie. you may be asking, why is she talking about this movie? well it is because it is based in Las Vegas and i am going their to celibate the birth of my good friend Eva and my little sister Savvy. im so excited! we leave on Thursday after school and we are ment to stay till the 31st but we are leaving on the 30th because the girls who are going to Africa have a huge fund raiser on the 31st i shall be loads of fun you can decorate toms shoes, eat and hand out with friends. we all are so excited even my mom is coming to Vegas, she is staying in a different hotel of course and she is bringing Smitty along! so they will be together most of the time. you know, chillin out maxin relaxin all cool... I just wish the rest of the girls would understand that she is not going to like, stock us or anything, she is just going to be in town. i don't mind her coming, if she wasn't i wouldn't even go, i have a car to pay for that my "Vegas" money could go towards. any way, that's the up date.
i love you all
                     -a frustrated and excited, ash