"yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. thats why it is called the present."

Normally, (on any other day) I would have thought that this saying was... wise, insightful, and many other things. But after today... I think its a load of crap. 

"please God give me another day... and erase this one from my memory. Amen"

I wish I could blame the events that happened today on someone but the sad miserable truth is... I have only myself to blame. And maybe that is why it hurts so bad, because I know that I was in the wrong (all evidence points to me), also, it made my Mom right, as she always is ( :/ ).
WHY IS MY LIFE SO PREDICTABLE!?!?!?!?
it annoys me to no end. And I am sorry i am ranting right now, but I have no one to "console me" or complain to, so Ill unleash my depressed thoughts in to the internet, to my few readers.
I cant go in to detail with out going on a rampage, just know that it is nothing of grave concern.
I feel so overwhelmed. And I've been thinking about that word "overwhelmed" and I have  thought about all the times I have felt overwhelmed, and I realized that I have never felt underwhelmed. Oh how I long to be underwhelmed. I guess that's why we have summer.... time to feel underwhelmed. Unfortunately it has had the opposite effect on me. :/
                        Untill next time... if you even wish to continue on after this entry (once again I am sorry)
                                                                      -ash

8 days down.... 22 days to go...

so my mom my sis and i joined this "boot camp" that is run by a nice couple that goes to our church (Jessica and Mike) the program lasts for twelve weeks, we work out twice a week on our own, and once on Saturday all together, and for 35 of those 12 weeks we are eating ONLY God made foods (foods that are the most nutritious for our bodies). The diet is supposed to make us realize our addictions that we never noticed before taken away. I am not addicted to any foods, so I said "why not? I can eat right for a few days." it is not as hard as i thought. Going in to this, and looking at the list of things NOT to eat, my eyes fell on one section, NO DAIRY!, I LOVE yogurt, milk, CHEESE, all those goods! But unfortunately i must abstain from the creamy delicious dairy products for 35 days, I knew that dairy is what I would crave the most; and i must know myself pretty well, because i was absolutely right!

other than that, the "diet" has been going quite successfully.... for my sister on the other hand... its not exactly "smooth sailing" she is in desperate need of sugar, she is acting like a heroin addict quitting cold turkey (its fricken hilarious). Oh did i mention, that, IF you cheat you have to start back at day 1? NO? well its true. (Savannah has to restart. even though the ingredients in honey is honey, its a substitute for her real addiction. Therefore back to square one.)








the first few days were difficult, we were spending the weekend in Vicalia (sp) with my family, and we had to go on a pick nick (the recipes that we use make a lot, but all of them have to be heated up) so we ate fruits veggies more fruits and veggies, hard boiled eggs, while our family got to enjoy sandwiches. Okay they did not enjoy their sandwiches, the cooler that they were in actually soaked all of them straight through the bag.


in other news, i went to the doctors, found out i have a stigmatism  in my left eye, and that i have exercised induced Asthma, Savannah died my hair burgundy, i painted my nails like Rihanna....

 and thats about it.

until next time
                               -ash

summer time

summer,

where to begin?

the summer started out slow... which is what i wanted.
i had a very fast moving summer last year, so i wanted to get
all of the things i HAD to do this summer out of the way first
 so i could do what i wanted to do this summer.

 First few weeks : baby sitting Joseph and Toby.
get enough money to buy a camera.
buy a camera.
finish summer home work.
take few pictures (because i was rarely out of the house)
shopping
shopping
online shopping
                                                                hanging out at Ali's house
                                                                waiting in line for eclipse all day with Ali even though i wasn't staying to watch the movie at midnight. i went with my aunt Susanna at three am.


next few weeks: help my Aunt Dawnette and family move in to their awesome new house
visit family in vicalia (sp)
be cca at forest home ( van and i make lots of new friends)
Savannah erases all pictures on my brand new camera (accidentally)
find out my friend Sirena was in a car accident (she is okay but broken a little)
go to drive in movies with family to see the best movie ever (Inception)
i start to work with my mom making a movie at MIR called toy story 3.5 i did all the edditing
my camera starts taking blurry pictures i take it to get fixed
help my uncle mike and family move out of their old apartment and in to their new one
went to movies and market night with Morgan and her boyfriend (we saw The Sorcerers Apprentice)
went to beach with Vannah and Trish (i was saved by a life guard... sounds cool, yet, so embarrassing)
went to the movies with family to see Dinner For Schmucks (hilarious)
ate at Olive Garden and went to TCBY
still my camera is unfixed

a week later: go swimming with Eliannah in her new pool (she is so funny)
visited with my friend Jamie went to see Charlie St. Cloud (really good! Zach Efron should get an award)
next day we met up again for market night (Me, Savannah, Jamie, Sharia, Jessica, Eva ) got talked to by a police man because we were out past curfew (we had to use the bathroom what a dirt bag. strongly dislike the Redlands police) (that night sucked.)
Vannah entered driving school
then back home lounging around the house again
Vannah gets driving permit
still my camera is unfixed (im mad)


so far my summer has rocked, its been the perfect combination of  work, play, and lazyness.