good things come...

everyone has something that they are addicted to, some have drugs some have alcohol some have magazines...

                            i have Nikki!!!!!
                        And Sirena!!!!!!!!!!

she makes me laugh so hard, I'm literally in pain.

she is so crazy an hilarious, i have the most fun when I'm with her an Sirena.

we are entertained by the dumbest things and we love being around each other :)

anyway this post goes out to my crazies :)

love,

agent 006 ash ;)

who?

 what makes a person memorable?

trends, influences blah blah blah, why do normal people live up to those standards, judge everyone on the street, cloths, makeup, hair, etc. why do people crave to be accepted? 

why do i? 

is it the things they do? the things they say? is the individual that people remember actually that person? or is it a disguise to fool th outside parties? are they themselves? is that who people like? or is it the pretend person who they like? would the other people like the real person?

why isn't everyone treated equally?

i have just been questioning the people i hang out with, i think, well... i try to be a great friend, one whom people can rely on, and people just, don't think twice about me.

no one likes to feel invisible.

i just want to be thought of.

there are tons of people who never remember my name, who don't recognize me at the store, on the street, sometimes my own friends don't go out of their way to say hi when they were at the movies.
i just feel so anonymous.

this is why i do not hang around people my age. And i'm the one who is having trouble sleeping because i need to get this off my chest some how, and they are probably sleeping like babies, not giving me a thought.

how do i become memorable? i just try to be me. and hope that people accept that, i like who i am, i'm fun loyal, i dress ok i guess, i'm not too hideous. why do i feel so unwanted?

individual: a single human being, as distinguished from a group.


a distinct, indivisible entity; a single thing, being, instance, or item.


i am an individual, and i love my friends. but i want to feel loved back, someone who is asked in to pictures and invited to movies and is texted just to see how i'm feeling, a friendship is not just one party. 












this whole thing is not just one thing that recently happened, its been little things building up in my thoughts, and i'm not just wanting to complain.

 i wanted to point out the irony in all relationships, we are all fakes, phonies, liars , pretenders, actors, and some of us are just jerks; so why cant we get along and be nice? 

let people have the chance to come out from behind their masks, you never know, you might like what you see...

up date

so much to talk about! i haven't updated in forever!

first things first, i have to talk about the trip(s)
here is Miranda, Christina,James and i in Las Vegas for Eva's sweet 16. we had loads of fun!











then of course the Michigan trip! my sweet Panda got married, again! and that was great (cold, cold) fun, and Sav and i miss it out their a lot! and everyone we left behind.

then there was Winterim week the first day we went to the beach to pick up trash. did you know that sea gulls eat the trash and then die? its like they should not eat things like that huh?
nick and i wrote each other a note in the sand.

the second day we went to Hollywood, we went to the farmers market for lunch, then to ripleys believe it or not museum which was really cool, check out all the cool pics we took.
here is me and nick making "taco tongs" in the deceitful mirror which turned out to be two ways so people walking by on the other side of the wall could see us being stupid.

here is me with the man made out of buttons,  i like to call him Benjamin Button :)

here is me and nick in the chair of love

while we were on Hollywood Blvd we saw the people setting up for The Academy Awards, the red carpet was out and everything, so nick and i suck off to the Kodak theater to catch a glimpse of what the celebs would see when they were there.

this is me in side of the Kodak Theater on the steps.
it was so cool inside!

then of course we went to see the foot prints at the Chinese Theater, but these were the only foot prints i was interested in :)

the next day we went to Knotts Berry Farm!

it was a lot of fun, except i have the WORST motion sickness and that made me miss out on a lot, which was sad.

i was kinda the mom of the group, i took pictures and cheered on the ones brave enough to go on the rides.

i did get to go on a few rides that did not make me feel too noxious :)

 Nick, Hannah, Miranda, Lewis :)

that day was so fun!
that, however was my last day of winterim, my stomach problems turned out to be more than motion sickness, but that is okay, i don't regret on missing out on any thing, i had fun the days i was healthy. Jamie planed a great week, (all of my love goes out to you "sweet buns").






other than that things are pretty normal, Mom and Van left on Friday the 12th for Uganda, Gulu Africa, so it is just me and my dad for two weeks. things are going great, i love spending time with my dad, we went to get his hair cut down at the beach by Dillon because he is not ready for someone else to cut his hair yet, then we went to Taco Loco for a delicious tofu mushroom burger, soooooooooooooo good! we have just been playin it by ear, i babysit for van on Mondays while she is gone and i have softball practice everyday, i like it so far. other than that my life is pretty much in rhythm, well thats all i have for you right now.........
                                                  -ash 

wise men say.....

Only Fools Rush In. oh the magical love that Alex and Isabel share in this movie. you may be asking, why is she talking about this movie? well it is because it is based in Las Vegas and i am going their to celibate the birth of my good friend Eva and my little sister Savvy. im so excited! we leave on Thursday after school and we are ment to stay till the 31st but we are leaving on the 30th because the girls who are going to Africa have a huge fund raiser on the 31st i shall be loads of fun you can decorate toms shoes, eat and hand out with friends. we all are so excited even my mom is coming to Vegas, she is staying in a different hotel of course and she is bringing Smitty along! so they will be together most of the time. you know, chillin out maxin relaxin all cool... I just wish the rest of the girls would understand that she is not going to like, stock us or anything, she is just going to be in town. i don't mind her coming, if she wasn't i wouldn't even go, i have a car to pay for that my "Vegas" money could go towards. any way, that's the up date.
i love you all
                     -a frustrated and excited, ash

Flocking

            
Today was so blah it was a half day, i went in at 10 took my Spanish III final and went home, slept for about four hours and then got dressed in all black to go flock my teachers house. flocking is kind of our school's specialty, normally someone pays us to go to someones house and take like a million pink plastic flamingos and stick them all over the yard, then they will be all like "omg where did all of these come from?" then they will see the flier on the door saying something along the lines of "you've been FLOCKED sucka! to get these flamingos off ur yard you have to pay the small price of... to the winterum..." its really fun, but because it is Christmas time we decided to do "striping" so we do candy canes instead, except we couldn't afford giant candy canes, so we got the lil ones and some candy cane wrapping paper and decorated his whole car all the trees and taped candy canes every where, and all that before 10 o'clock. if you would like to "stripe" someone you know E male me it is only $10 and all we need is the mon$$ and an address.  tell your friends!

modeling

a while ago Savannah and i were asked by a few guys in a photography class if we would be models for their assignment, so naturally we agreed to helping them out, they ended up turning out pretty nice, although i now wish that we could take some more so i could wear an outfit where the strap didn't continuously pop off.

so it was a fun experience any how, they did a fantastic job i must say. they made us look like friggen angels. anyway, i got to go and study, finals are this week *yuck* i hope i can make it. and i am so looking forward to mu 17th comin up on the 21st i cant wait not to be 18 another year!

Creative???

I'm not really a fashion blogger (though i wish i was) but i can appreciate creativity when i see it, what am i talking about? you may be asking... I'm talking about these........

I found out about them from my friend Davis who wanted me to watch "Fashion Orgasm" with him.

they look like bee hives...... and very uncomfortable to walk in. And I know that fashion is not about comfort or practical-ness but come on!

I mean, yes they are kinda cool, very creative, it makes me wonder what Alexander McQueen's inspiration was... maybe Firefly? not the band, the show about the future. 

so even though they are strange, they are unique, and I will never shut down a creative idea when i see one.
Admittedly, I do like them a little more because of Lady GaGa.

       -ash